Things will just keep coming at me here. I keep having dreams about certain things. One in detail is me having my appt. for housing to get my own place. The other dream is about me being pregnant. NO I AM NOT PREGNANT OK!!!! But it seemed so real. I know deep down in my heart I do want another one but not right now. For one I am not ready and two I am too scared. Well both dreams have been happening alot lately. And its the same dream over and over again.

Hey Werner, I miss ya Bud. Hope You and Meghan are doing good. With everything going on with you know who it scares me you know? I am glad you know who came and visited ya a little while back and had a good time.

Well not much to say, been in a low mood trying not to think of what may or may not happen. Did I tell you I went to the Relay for Life Cancer Walk last friday night with my friend Dawn and her family? I was really impressed by how together her family is, not that ours isn't or anything. There were so many that I didn't even know at least 40 people there. At one point in time, Dawn's Dad Jim and her brother Jimmy both stood next to me hugging me cause all I could think about was certain things going on around me and missing my Grandpa.

Well I felt that I needed to buy a rememberance for my Grandpa who passed away several years ago but remember it like it was yesterday. So I bought a Luminary in Rememberance of him. My friends Mom Marsha brought her camera and I took a picture of it so I could show my Mom and Grandma. Then I took a picture of Jonathan sitting next to it. It was dark so I hope it turned out. Also walking around the track I noticed a few names. Like my Aunt Jeannie's Father In Law, Stuart Shuck. I know alot of people die from cancer, I guess I really didn't realize til' that night how many do? For being in a football field, there were bags going around the entire football field each with different names on it. I sometimes wish I knew why God gave us this disease to deal with? Why such a horrible thing? To GOOD people at that.


On a lighter note, I've been playing Sims.....yes I am addicted...dam game. Shoot me at will.


Oh and the movie, The Last Samurai was dam good. I saw bits and pieces of it cause I was kinda busy but it was really good. Yes I cried and I could swear my friend Mike was pretty close as well.