I've been so tired lately its pitiful. I don't know if it is my not sleeping for like a week and only getting 3-4 hours a sleep a night or what. But it is bothering me. I am also a bit depressed right now only cause I let myself get that way. I'v been fighting my feelings for a certain person cause we have broken up twice already. Well now I find myself missing him. Calling him just to hear his voice. IS that bad of me? I don't know how to act right now. Or its the thought of not seeing him for almost a week is what is bothering me. I told him, that he needs to spend more time with his kids right now. They only stay kids for a short time. So he is this weekend, and I feel good about that. Its not fair for me to spend all the time with him. I've always told him, kids come first. Anyhow, he will call me sometime today so what am I worried about? The distance maybe, he is in Waterloo, Iowa. Only 2 hours away. He works down here but drives home everyday he works. Poor guy!!!

Of the puter for awhile, got some more sleep to do. Figure better do some now....uh???