I am feeling a bit down right now, can't really talk about it. My heart is broken. That is pretty much all I can say. I somehow wish I had a good job and a place of my own to live to where I can help out my friends and family. It just tears me up inside that I cannot help others. I guess what I really need to do is, help myself first. If a certain someone reads this, don't take it the wrong way!! I really wish I could help you out more than just moral support. I love my family no matter what happens. Family is what keeps this world together despite our differences. When I spend time with my brother and sisters, I live it like its the last day together. Cause who knows what tomorrow may bring, we may die tonight or tomorrow. If we spend all our time fighting then how will we ever know what kind of difference we would make in each others lives.