This will be a short post. I've been really depressed. See, the guy I dated earlier this year has decided to end his life. He took his life around Thanksgiving. It has really upset me. He was a strong avid sportsmen with a love for life. I am dumbfounded on why he decided to take his own life. He made me feel so good about myself and made me feel like a person again. The day we met I was sicker than a dog and told me how cute I was. Yeah I looked like crap. And felt even worse. Makes no sense. I am glad I am seeing someone who loves me so much and respects my feelings and thoughts. He has helped me through this rough time. And talk about being supportive. WOW. I love him. He has been standing by me with a smile on his face and holding me when I needed it. I am still not sleeping though. Well, I gotta run. Gots lots to do.