Not much to say just trying to figure things out and so forth. I've got alot on my plate. I've been thinking about moving in with Mike for the time being for about a month now. Jonathan is just getting too out of control and I know its putting a stress on my roomy. He is used to being the only child and always having center of attention. And he hasn't had that in months. So better yet give him back his spotlight living with Mike. I know it sounds terrible but I don't care anymore. I haven't felt good this week and neither has alot of people. I got a nasty cold last saturday on top of my ear infection so now I can't hear. The lingering cough is still here. On Monday and Tuesday, I felt like the world closed in on me. I felt extremely tired and totally exhausted. And since Jonathan is in school I took the opportunity to sleep in the morning after he went to school. Since moving in here, I have tried to help with the housework and her laundry. But lately its been rough. I pretty much gave up trying to help clean the house when the kids just trash it anyway. Now I know what my parents went thru with us kids. I am so sorry Mom. But I bet ya, with the laundry thing. OMG. Another thing I am sorry for Mom. I bet ya, I do anywhere from 6-7 loads a week. There are some nights I don't get to bed til' after 2am. Cause I want to make sure all the kids have clothes. It seems the laundry is endless. I enjoy doing it though so it don't matter to me. I know it helps my roomy. She is trying so hard to raise three kids and go to school on her own. It is very difficult to do that. I've been there and done that. And I want to go back to school. I also am very depressed with not having my own place and its getting harder and harder for me to focus on my life. But I know I have too. God willing this weekend please help me relax and think about the things I need to change in my life and help others as much as possible. While actually trying to take a bath today. I laid in the tub trying to think of something positive. And I figured something out...but I won't tell. I don't know what Mike has planned for us this weekend so hopefully I won't be far from home. I already miss my Son. And I haven't even left yet. I am going to miss Levi, Nicole and Andrew though. Especially Levi, I love the way he says my name. He is such a sweetie pie.